Writing

O.K so you all have got to be thinking that i'm a total freak because i have made my blog name about writing and i havn't posted a thing about it. So heres the thing, i definatly like to write. Poetry is good because it's easy 2 finish, and i'm the most inconsistant person in the world. I've started a bunch of books with a good story line and alot of stamina, but i couldn't finish one if my life depended on it. I don't even know if writing is the thing i love more than anything in the world, i just think i have a knack for it and could someday grow to love it more than anything in the world. I think i know that i'm meant to do it because of the way i think. To me, this is really weird, but it's the truth. In my head, I narrate mt life. That doesn't sound so weird but i don't narrate it like i'm telling the story, i narrate it like someone else is. Is that weird? I don't know. I think we're all a little weird sometimes. Maybe it's that weirdness that makes some people so likeable. Its probably also that weirdness that makes some people so unlikable. Intresting isn't it. That something completly the same can have such different effects on people. Those are the things i think about. I think about what i'm going to be later in life and what i want to be. It's also strange how those two things can be so different. We'd be lucky if we're atleast a little like we are now, five years from now. But theres something about thinking about the future that i just hate. Mostly because it scares me. It scares me to think about how many people i will lose in life and all the oppertunities i'll miss. And all the heartbreak i will eventually have to go through. I see it happen to my friends and family and i see it on tv. And everytime i do, i know some day it will happen to me too.
I said i knew i was destined to be a writer because of the way i think. Well heres another really weird thing: it's also the very thing i hate about being a writer. God knows that few people at the age of nine tossed and turned at night because they were thining about the future. Even deeper than that, they were thinking about life itself, about heaven and if there was one. Maybe, we've had are run and thats it. I thought about black holes and watching my family die. Who thinks about that at nine? I did. And the worst part was that i knew why. Being a good writer can be a blessing and a curse. For me, it was both. I hated thinking those things at night, but it gave me something to be good at, in fact, the best at. I was ok at sports but not great. i couldn't ride a bike or holla hoop, or rock climb or anything like that. To this day i am still an atrochous painter. I'm good at school and i'm proud of what i accomplish, but i 'm definatly not half as smart as others. Maybe writing just gave me something for people to marvel at. Something that made me stand out. As cheesey as that sounds, it was true. But still it's not something that i can just generate whenever i want. It's something i have to be in the mood for. Something that needs inspiration.
And writing books and poems isn't even my passion. I like movies. Everything about them just amazes me. The way they were writen, and produced and the music in them. Its all just amazing. I'm completly convinced that a good movie can change your life. There are so many movies i'd like to see someone make. So many stories that haven't been told. Which is why i want to be a screen writer. There's an endless ocean of plots and stories that could easily be transformed into a film. As much as i really just want to write, i'd do anything in the subject of film. Other than screenwriteing, i'd want to do something envolving music in movies. Everytime I hear a good song i can otimatically think of scene in a movie that it would fit perfectally in. Wheather it had been written yet or not. I have no musical talent whatsoever, but i still love it. Listening to music is like hearing a story. Not always within the lyrics just the beat and the sound and the way they move together just tells you something. Anyways, I've talked enough. For all those few people who care, i'm outtie!

Lets talk cars!!!!

Dude I want a car so freaking bad!!!!!!!!! I want a big ford F150!!!!!! Call it a guy car all you want but those tiny sports cars are 4 wusses!! Plus I'm like totally claustrophobic! I really don't care what my car looks like on the outside. All i care is that it has the most awesome engine on the planet. And those are my thoughts about cars.